Sunday, August 7, 2011

I. AM. BORED.

Gawd, I can't wait for school to start again! Please don't spread that around, but I can't. I want to be useful again and have something to do during the day. You know, you can't appreciate the weekends when you don't work, so I'm at that point. I need to work again, so I can appreciate days off! Two more weeks and then I'll be back to counting the sleeps until I can sleep in on the weekends-lol.

Not that the summer hasn't had its up and downs and drama, but after some bad phone calls, email and unfriending on Facebook, it seems to have calmed down and things are quiet. Just in time for me to go back to work drama- which I don't mind. Drama when I'm not working and when I'm volunteering is NOT what I want. So, let's hope that is over with for now.

Off to watch bad tv and maybe read a book until it is time for me to go to sleep.

Counting the days...that's what I think of summer holidays!

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

A sad day.

I just found out that a man I went to school with died on Sunday while having some fun on a lake in Saskatchewan. In a small town, we were in the same grade from Kindergarten to grade 12. And his dad was my social studies teacher from grade 7 to 12 and his mother also taught at the school. We were not particularly close, but when someone who is the same age as you dies suddenly, it puts life into perspective.

I feel terrible for his parents and his sister and his friends. Life is very short and for some it is incredibly so.

So hug your loved ones today and remember what's important in life and it isn't what you have or don't have- it is your loved ones and the people that you chose to have in your life.

Sadness and Sympathy; that's what I think today.

Sunday, July 31, 2011

Yep, it's official...I AM a bitch!

Because, I had a great time at the wedding last night! Reading the last post, I didn't have the greatest expectations for the wedding and I honestly thought I would be home in a couple of hours, but I drank and danced the night away. I had a great time with my friends and co-workers and I drank a lot of red wine! I staggered home with a couple that I used to work with, played with my doggie and then fell into bed. And I don't even have a hangover this morning!!!!! Bonus! I did sleep until almost 11AM, but to be fair, I was going to get up at 9 when I woke up, but it was thunder storming and I just didn't feel like it, so I went back to sleep until my mother called at 10:45.

Today, I'm having a lazy day. I cleaned my whole house really well yesterday and the only think that I might do is a bit of laundry. I will have to take the dog out for a walk, but after that I'm going to watch tv, read a book, work on my knitting-- whatever I want. Good day!!

So, in conclusion, I had a great time unexpectedly. A pleasant surprise indeed!

That's what I now think about weddings!

Saturday, July 30, 2011

Am I a bitch?

I really do want to know.

I have been asked by my friend to accompany her and her boyfriend to the wedding of a coworker who is getting married tonight. Here's the rub, I wasn't actually invited. Yes, the bride put up a sign up sheet in the staff room for people that wanted to attend, but my friend also received an invitation; I did not. I thought that I would be on a road trip with my cousin right now and so I didn't sign up. I also have issues with signing up for a wedding. It's like I'm begging to come to the social event of the year and the Bride will look at my application and see if I'm worthy. If you want me to come to your wedding, print off an invitation and give it to me so that I feel like I'm wanted.

I am happy for the Bride and Groom, but I am in such a funk these days, I don't think I'll be much fun. I don't actually enjoy weddings as a rule. I can't remember the last wedding that I went to where I thought, "Boy, that was a fun wedding!" I've had an okay time at a couple of weddings, but I haven't had a blast. It doesn't help that I'm a singleton and I usually go solo. My cousin is getting married at the end of August and I'm excited for that wedding but more because all of my extended family will be there and I have a blast with them. It is also going to be held at a nightclub, so dancing will be much better than at other wedding venues where you either have to be shitfaced or you just sway back and forth because the lights are so bright and you are self-conscious.

Well, I'll go for a few hours tonight and try to have a good time. I think that I've just answered my own question. Yes, I am a bitch. But, I'm not the only one out there- this I know for sure!

That's what I think about weddings. Harumph!

Friday, July 29, 2011

A time for reflection

It is almost August and I am reflecting on a few things. The past few months have been very difficult for me, both personally and professionally.

The school year ended with teachers in Saskatchewan going on strike for three days. This was not only a financial burden, it was also a blow to my professional self-esteem. I found the comments about teachers on the news sites and in the paper to be a big wake-up call for me. I always thought that teachers were well thought of by parents and students- in general. There is always a few rotten apples in the barrel, but the ignorant comments from Joe Public really stung and for the first time I was feeling bad about my chosen career. Not only did I feel attacked by the people of Saskatchewan, but I also felt that my government created a campaign against teachers to break us down morally and emotionally. A fact that was basically confirmed by our bargaining committee. I think this was the most upsetting; a government is supposed to protect and stand up for all of its citizens and here they were- planning and implementing a strategy designed to hurt. I know that I am 30 years old, but I think that my childish innocence about government was shattered. I am still sick to my stomach when I think about it and now we have gone to mediation for a small percentage more than the government offered and I wonder what it was all for? Why did we walk off the job, put ourselves out there for ridicule and to be broken? Was it worth it? I don't know.

Now it's summer and I'm supposed to recharge my batteries except that I have volunteered for a non-profit organization and the drama that has ensued has made my summer more stressful than working. I joined the board to help and a few of us seemed to do nothing but try to "manage" grown women who should know how to behave. Our leader is sick in the hospital and is fighting to recover from a serious illness and this drama was picked up by myself and a few others. I am exhausted and not sure how much longer I can do this for. I now feel like I can't resign because we've lost three pretty big contributors already and I feel as though I would be leaving the organization high and dry. I am also afraid that I will look like a shit for quitting. I don't know where it will end, but I know this, when I go back to school at the end of August, I will be cutting back.

When I get back to school, I will be faced with a multimillion dollar renovation and I am dreading that. We have basically been told that it will be 2-3 years of hell and we need to be prepared. Goody! I am prepared, but when my volunteer work is stressing me out and my work is stressing me out, something will give and I can tell you that my volunteer work doesn't pay my mortgage, so I know what will be cut out of my life. I hope it doesn't come to it, but I am prepared in case it does.

This blog has changed for me. It started out as an assignment for one of my grad classes, then became a sort of professional blog and now I think it will be my personal blog. The title fits. Nobody reads this, so it will be an online diary for myself and I will be able to trace my life through the postings. If you have stumbled across this blog by accident, I hope you will leave a comment and let me know that you were here.

That's what I think...

Katie